2004-02-04 at 7:52 a.m.
Fucking blah.
I don't understand this. I'm talking about me right now, but I know there are a hell of a lot of other people out there who do it, too.
Why do we sit around and let people take advantage of us day after day? Why do we go out of our ways to do things for other people without knowing for sure that when you need them, they're going to do something for you, too? Like when it's all said and done, you know?
Why do we make sure other people are happy all the time and do our best to keep them that way, just because they are important to us? Why don't we know that some people are just gonna be unhappy sometimes? Why don't we accept that? Cos we know it's true and we don't always need to be the hero or whatever? Sometimes there's just nothing we can do, even tho we want to do something.
With that, why do we allow ourselves to be treated like shit time and time again? Why do we say "Yes." when we want to shout out "NO!"? You'd think we'd learn after being disappointed with people so many times, right? Heh. Hardly.
Why do we try to help people who don't want help? Even tho we really think they need help? And then.. when they turn down your offer, why do we just sit back and take no for an answer, watching them destroy their lives?
Is that a good thing or a bad thing? When someone you know needs help so fucking bad, but they don't want it and they don't care what you think? You know, when they turn a blind eye to their problem, even tho they know it's there... they pretend they don't.. and just let it ruin their lives.
It's insulting when people don't take your advice to heart.. or when people just ignore the fact that you care and carry on with their destructive ways. Time and time a-fucking-gain this happens.. and it slowly leads us to not even trying to help that person. How in the hell does that happen? If their loved ones aren't there to help them.. no matter what.... who will be? But like I said, at the SAME FUCKING TIME THEY DON'T WANT OR ACCEPT YOUR HELP, BUT WHEN THE TIME COMES DOWN TO IT.. AND THEY REALIZE WHAT IN THE FUCK THEY'VE DONE WITH THEIR LIVES, THEY'RE GOING TO TURN THE BLAME ON YOU FOR NOT HELPING THEM NO MATTER WHAT IT TOOK.
LIFE IS JUST STUPID, THE WAY THE HUMAN RACE ALLOWS THINGS TO GO. LIFE IS THIS HUGE.. CONTRADICTING MATTER.
NO, I'M NOT SAYING I WANT MY LIFE TO BE OVER, BUT I SURE AS HELL COULD GO FOR A MORE SIMPLE EXISTANCE.
IT'S LIKE.. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO do from one day to the next. Continue to help people to no avail or stop caring.... and look like a heartless twat.
Fucking blah.